cloudy

By Kyah Joseph

i don’t have time to daydream. what does daydreaming even mean when my head is running 100 miles an hour?

i don’t sleep, i don’t eat, i don’t have time to relax. my brain is clouded, but it’s not a fluffy cotton candy cloud. it’s a thunderstorm with torrential rain.

i’m not dreaming about my happily ever after, i’m worrying about failure at the end of my chapter.

daydreaming is overrated anyways. if you have time to sit and dream then that means you’re not doing enough, not working hard enough, not pushing yourself enough, not stressing enough, 

not crying enough.

my brain is clouded, and i’m left feeling foggy and empty. 

i want to daydream, but i don’t know how.